Whatever your personal belief system faith word used often and is a big component of that belief. Having faith can be faith in the scientific method, faith one’s beliefs are logically and emotionally sound, or faith that a deity or deities are helping us. Whatever your personal stance the word faith plays a key role but do we fully comprehend the intensity of faith and it’s meaning?
Too often we hear about faith and have an adverse reaction because for many this word has been used in negative ways. Accusations of not having enough faith and even not fully grasping the physical aspect of the meaning of the word. I truly think most of us have never experienced faith in its full capacity because it is much like an epiphany. Not everyone will have it as the same time and some of us won’t ever have it at all. This doesn’t mean faith doesn’t exist. Instead it means the word faith cannot, for many, be fully understood.
Recently, in June of 2021 I had a split second of faith. I had never felt it before. It was this overwhelming calm where for a microsecond my heart no longer contained fear, a need to control, or any thoughts of concern. It was a bolt of lightning that brought complete peace and in that short bolt of calm I understood how much god was with me and holding me but also the great divide between me and true faith there really was. I had no words. I fell silent and I took in a gasp of air fully realizing the depth of faith for the first and possibly only time in my life. Words can’t begin to describe the calm I felt in my soul and it is something I wish everyone could have so they can understand the absolute freedom faith brings.
Faith is not meant to be something we fabricate for ourselves. Saying we have faith isn’t enough, saying we have it is only a start because we can’t create faith out of nothing. We can no sooner create faith for ourselves by saying we have it than we can ask for the sun to shine at night. It comes at the time it is meant to come.
Have you ever noticed how many people scream at others in anger about how much faith they have? As if using force to drive their point will make their faith more valid. This comes from their fear, and where there is fear there can be no faith. Anyone boasting of their faith has not stood in its true presence because it is so awe striking words fail. There would be no need to booster their experience through forcefulness because the only force available is the utter calm that overcomes you and the divine knowledge that all is well. Mine didn’t hit when everything was well.., in fact it hit me in some of my darkest times to date. This is how I knew it was true faith because my logical mind would never look at my circumstances and devise the ideology that I should be so trusting of the Universe.
I believe faith is in the same line of understanding as the unconditional love of god and a kundalini awakening. We have the vocabulary to name the experience but the definition doesn’t begin to clear the fog and shine light on its extreme force. It is a beautiful thing that we can name things we haven’t experienced because we can talk about these subjects with far less confusion. I write this because for those of you feeling like you’ve lost faith… you haven’t. Lost sight of the goal of faith possibly but it’s never fully gone. Lean in and cuddle into the dark and hard times because that is when faith shines it’s light the hardest and brightest. I hope it shines for each of you soon because once it does you can better understand the depth and love of the Universe for you!